I have many friends who have different beliefs and I'm never trying to sway you from what you believe in. I'm only speaking from my own personal experience & what God is doing in my life in hopes that by you reading this, you can find even a little bit of Encouragement with what you're going through.
I'm trying to create something that I really believe in my heart can benefit a lot of people. I'm in the early stages and I'm putting the work in but I'll be honest to say that lately there have been moments when doubt has come up in my mind. It happens to all of us. It's that voice in your head that says you don't have what it takes or you’re not doing enough. The voice that keeps you from chasing that dream or from taking that risk. The voice that calls you a failure when you failed or a loser when you lost. I call that negative voice the enemy.
Then yesterday I was driving to work and I was listening to a podcast from one of my favorite preachers, Carl Lentz. Carl was talking about Gods grace and preaching on 2 Corinthians 12:9.
"But he said to me, "My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
Carl then said that, "God isn't looking for perfect people... He's looking For AVAILABLE people." When I heard this, I felt peace come over me. It was exactly what I've been feeling and exactly what I needed to hear.
He continued, “The fact that God’s power is displayed in our weaknesses should give us courage and hope. As we recognize our limitations, we will depend more on God for our effectiveness rather than on our own energy, effort, or talent. Our limitations not only help develop Christian character but also deepen our worship, because in admitting them, we affirm God’s strength.”
Y'all wanna know something? At times I’m weak, at times I’m scared, and at times I’m Insecure. But instead of focusing only on my self and on the things I lack, I'm learning more and more everyday that my purpose is bigger than me. My journey is bigger than me. And even though it's scary and even when I feel like I don't have what it takes, I'm quickly reminded like I was yesterday morning that "Gods power is made perfect in MY WEAKNESS..."
We don’t need to have it all it together, we just have to be available - Available to be honest with ourselves, to pray, to believe, & to trust that even in our darkest times, we’re not alone. When we can do these things, we become better equipped to follow what God has called us to do.
There is a plan and purpose for your life and you don’t have to be perfect for that to manifest. You just have to be available. Know that, Believe that, Trust that.
"A little bit of grace opens up room for a whole lotta truth!"
I hope this encourages somebody today.